I have a whining personality.
I've just spent a couple of hours packing away most of my stuff. All I have left is all the kitchen stuff(since I'll need to eat until sunday) and my computer set-up(which I don't have any boxes for. Yet.)
It's beginning to hit me that I'm leaving this place behind. I didn't feel anything in particular when I was packing all my stuff up, but now I'm relaxing on my sofa it's sinking in. I'll probably feel worse when I'm back in Dorset, with all my stuff packed into Mum's garage, and me cramped up in the Funnel Web. Truth is, it might be a couple of months before I have enough money saved to get my own place, and those couple of months aren't going to be much fun, what with the constant working and living under Mum's roof once again.
Everything that's happening right now is a real blow to my feeling of independence. It was great living on my own, sorting things out for myself(and, most of the time, for Jack too). Now I have to go back to a situation where I'm not in control of many variables, and where I can't do whatever I want.
I really hope something happens that means I can get my own place sooner rather than later. I don't know what that would be, really, aside from some sort of huge cash windfall, which isn't likely. I don't even play the lottery. I really hope I don't have to work at Somerfield too long, either. I mean, I'm good at the job. Really good. But it's not challenging, or stimulating or fun. I don't know what else I could do, though, based on my lack of qualifications.
This all sounds self-pitying, but I don't really feel that bad. I mean, if I have to, at some point in my life, get into huge amounts of debt and have no prospects, I would most definitely choose now. I mean, I don't have anyone depending on me, and this age is probably the most potential-filled time I'm ever going to have in my life. Being young means you can afford to make mistakes, which is lucky, because I've made
a few.
I'm certain that in 6-12 months, I'll look back on all this and laugh from the top of my empire. Which will be awesome.